In the centre it waits
a glimpse of my back
left in the margin
until old paintings
and tangents
divert
lost time
Edit: 27 January 2019
I have been thinking about whether divert and lost time are the right words to use. On second look at this, I am happy enough with the start of this, but haven’t thought about why. I will do this later. 070419. Because it is intuitive and thats the point, its meant to inform me how I feel/what I think when I look at the image. (13/4/19) At the moment I first need to focus on the text I am uncomfortable with because this seems to be my priority. Discomfort – getting rid of the discomfort of reading something that I am not sure is ‘right’.
Divert, lost time
Intuitively
Instinctively I wondered whether or not this word was right, but I am now thinking it may only feel wrong next to the other text lost time. I am diverting something, my attention from making and thinking about making a specific piece of work relating to Christina and Deluge, to tidying up the studio and thinking about starting the PhD and what this means. So I am diverting attention and focus, but not to lost time.
However does the lost time connect to divert in this way? Divert and lost time in two different sentences, maybe they are two different sentences? But I still don’t feel as though I lose time regardless as to whether I divert my attention from it. Time? Time on its own.
In the centre it waits
a glimpse of my back
left in the margin
until old paintings
and tangents
divert
time
I am not convinced this is right. It doesn’t achieve much. It could work, I guess. But perhaps I should focus on exactly what is it that I am trying to say?
time
What was the reason for writing this text?
I wrote this text to have a break from painting and to change course of making and thinking through text rather than paint or even maybe images. So the medium was diverted, the thinking through text rather than images and thoughts became expressed through letters rather than pictures. The mode of expression changed. This was a translation (intersemiotic or auto?) A translation of an engagement with/response to the image not the image itself. Translation of a (non) procrastination? A stimulation of ideas. beginning. becoming. possibility. A possible maybe.
In the centre it waits
a glimpse of my back
left in the margin
until old paintings
and tangents
divert
I will sit with this. It gets less and less and less, until its filed to a point. It’s half a triangle, an arrow, a direction. It whittles away until it becomes one final word. Until there are no words left and I have to do something else.
a glimpse of my back
left in the margin
until old paintings
and tangents
divert
5, 4, 3, 2, 1….. Ready to go!
coffee first.
*she hates words because words are way too specific and things are revealed and thats not great for someone who doesn’t want things revealed.
time
What can I do with the scraps?
In the centre it waits
Time
The Edit
It begins and ends in triangles
decreasing in value
slowing down
to the
point
Blank Canvas 